I was not disappointed because it is what the overall theme was, but then I realized I was disappointed because they did not mention the most important limbo which tests your flexibility and perhaps state of drunkenness as an adult! In this moment, it was reaffirmed that I am generally a glass half full type of girl.
However, right now, I feel like I am in a perpetual state of limbo (the type without the catchy music) with an emphasis on the present and not the future which for some reason unbeknownst to me is bothering me more that usual.
Is this what women in their 30's do, is this what "the clock" feels like? I feel like I need a definitive plan for everything; from short term vacations to my body to how I feel about myself to distant thoughts of "carved in stone" baby plans (or lack thereof) to long term goals to aging parents to.... You get the point. I feel like my mind is racing at a pace that I cannot possibly keep up with. I really don't think men "get it" in regards to how many things are floating around in a women's head at once, which I do not fault them for since I will willingly admit that women are just as guilty for not understanding how all men's brains work.
At this point, my thoughts are a balmy day in February with the Daytona 500 taking place in my head and the leader keeps changing, "From the back of the pack comes aging parents, but wait the third poll position siblings has taken the lead. Following closely behind is a bit of self loathing sponsored by the awful media monger of beauty equaling self worth. Oh, hell, Charlie did you see that shift from the inside of turn 2, babies now holds on to the lead, but it better be careful because right on that tail is long term plans with the ever present to do list constantly looking to overtake on the outside." It is truly maddening and almost impossible to keep up with; this has to be the reason that women talk more, drink more wine, and are more exhausted then men.
I am doing my very best to keep up with them all, but it's getting very difficult to deal with; I really need to find a place to fit some yoga in. I also think it is time to reconfigure some ways to balance since many of these things in my head seem to be ever present. So, if you have great suggestions for how you balance your life, please feel free to share because I want to make sure I am always a more often than not glass half full kinda girl.
Geepers! No suggestions here, but a need for the same! We women are complex beings for sure. I relate so much to this post. Your title head line is so the battle I face at present, "...self loathing...media monger...beauty equals self worth..." how do we overcome this hurdle and not buy in? I think often that I was given boys because, this is such a struggle for me, that I may pass the vicious self deprication cycle we are taught to have on to girls b/c of my poor example (whoa, run on sentence! ).
ReplyDeleteAt any rate, the monkey brain or as you described, racing brain, is a shared phenomenon and I too strive for seeing the glass half full. Keep me posted on any ideas!